So things are like this. I ‘m 25-26 years old, engaged with Katerina, working in my fathers business ever since I go off the army. The business is going down, the family also, my father leads the race.
Things are ruined, debts, problems, documents, lawyers. My mother had a freaky accident a few weeks back and we dont how and if she will ever recover.
No light insight, darkness around.
We barely have enough to make the day and need to find solutions for all sort of problems and issues and dead ends. Disappointed and desperate, dont know where I am standing and there’s nothing to compare my situation with.
All of my friends are living normal lives, some are married with children, some will. I am feeling cursed. I cant see tomorow coming, I cant bare today to end. I can not even imagine that there will ever be, a way out of it.
I am living with Katerina in a rented apartment, she knows there are problems but she does not know the full scale of them, I am ashamed to say. She looks more and more sceptical for us, you see, she is the daughter of public serveants and she is working in a bank. What can be more stable and more opposite than my situation? I think nothing.
I spend months in misery trying to find the way and the courage to tell her the truth, to say that, there was a house that I was owning but is gone, the bank took it. There was a life but is destroyed, there was a clear future but became unclear. She feels the tense, she lives the problem but she is not aware of everything. So until I find the way to say the things as they are, she asked me to seperate. She actually said, “I can see that you have a lot of issues and it will take you time to get out of them“. Which was true.
I felt sad but relieved also. She put me out of my misery. “Where to, she asked?“, “I ll go to my house for a while” I said. There was no house anymore, but she did not knew it.
I packed all my belongings in my red Nisssan Cherry, I kissed her good bye and I set off, destination unknown. Finally my oldest friend and his wife took me in for some time.
Few months passed, nothing really changed. My red Nissan Cherry became a green VW Polo with broken lights and no wipers. Summer heat and dust and nothing seems to last, nothing makes a sense, I just try to get by. I expect nothing, I ask nothing, what comes, comes. That’s how it is. I started a side job in order to cover my expenses and was still going every morning to our family buisiness. I succed to move in a house, no heating or electrical apppliances but a back yard with a pomegranate tree was a nice touch.
The days and the weeks and the months and the hours and the minutes and the seconds cause no change, bring no news, give no solutions. I am suffocating but to whom to say? Each one has a life, each one has issues. I count the hours and the drachmas side by side.
So is Friday afternoon and I am stucked in traffic, stoped in a traffic light, my front windscreen is so dirty and dusty, I feel my life is the same, stoped, stucked and dusty.
All my welth is a 500 drachma note, equal to 1,5 euro today. That’s all I have and I ve got nothig to expect.
A young guy, age 12-13, who cleans windscreens at traffic lights, comes at my window and stares at me, “Can I ?” he asked, ” I aint got nothing to give” I replied, and I turned my face. But he aint leaving, I can still see him. He stares. And then the strangest thing happened. He put his right arm over my shoulders, his face came close to mine, he looked deep into my eyes and with the voice of an angel he said, “dont worry, I ll do it for you“. And he did.
He clean my windscreen while looking and smiling at me. I was not offered a singe thing over the last months, no one gave nothing, no one offered nothing and there he was, smiling at me, making my sight more clean, making my heart warm.
I left the traffic light with no money at all, I gave him my 500 drachma note but he gave me so much more. Help is coming when you are not expecting and from a tiny thing something big can happen and we are not alone, no we are not. Love and beauty is everywhere and as long as you are still breathing, anything goes.
I dont know if God excists, but human does.